Something Positive

The other day I read something that made me feel better. It was in the Fibromyalgia & Chronic Myofascial Pain Syndrome by Dr Starlanyl & Ms Copeland( the old version). She said that many Native American Tribes treat people with Fibromyalgia with great respect. They are considered people with a special link to the spirit world.

A couple of months ago, I joined some of the Fibro groups on Yahoo. One of them has preachers running them. This also made me feel less like I was being punished for following the wrong religion.

I had been ashamed to admit that I am a shaman, because I felt stupid for not being able to heal myself. That said, I am still learning how to be a shaman. I had thought this was punishment for putting off a calling to a task from the Otherworld. Perhaps it still is, but atleast I don't feel embarrassed anymore.

I know most of the people I care for are Christian, and will look down upon me for my beliefs. I'm sure the atheists that I know will too. In truth, I incorporate many different elements of most of the religions. I had a religious experience with God ( I prefer to call it Great Spirit) and Jesus, at a very young age. I was raised Christian and had an eternal struggle with being a Christian. I knew the truth and hated the church for all of the ugliness it promoted (hatefullness towards others). I saw flaws with every religion I looked at. I felt lost until a few years ago, when I discovered Shamanism. I began journeying to the Otherworld, and learned more truths. I became ill after putting off the task given to me, to pursue more pressing personal issues. It was the wrong thing to do. I was not able to accomplish what I needed to do. My illness might never let me be able to fulfill the task from the Otherworld either. That really breaks my heart. If you ever get a calling, do it, no matter how impossible it seems. You might not get a second chance.